"My Age of Anxiety"

I always read what I post and sometimes mention my "Blogger's note" at the end. When I posted my previous post "Scott Stossel: 'I'm Pretty Succcesful at Hiding My Anxiety'" I was not expecting to have my own anxiety attack. I am okay, sort of, but just hearing about it or reading about it will set me off sometimes. Definitely if someone else is anxious I feed off of that.

Yes, I am saying publicly that I have a terrible problem with anxiety. Those of you who know me well probably find it hard to believe. I have been this way since I was in my teens and, the funny thing is reading always helped. I could forget about my anxiety and get lost in another world not of my own creation. That is part of the reason I am so happy to be reading again. When you cannot work, there is only so many times you can clean your house. Then you have too much time to think, and that, I have found, leads to anxiety.

I have been diagnosed with a ton of different condition and have been on a lot of medication until I found a doctor who finally realized it was just anxiety. I know why I am anxious sometimes, but it is those times when I do not know what is causing me chest pain, sweaty palms, feeling like I cannot breathe and feeling like something horrible is going to happen that I just cannot figure it out. It is okay when my husband is home he can talk me down pretty good. Other than that, is is Big Pharma that helps me out. I did try behavioral therapy and it is very hard to do. At least it was for me.

I will never forget I had not had a very bad panic attack in a long time and this year when I went to New York ComicCon, as soon as we walked in, the amount of people there gave me an instant and horrendous panic attack. I tend to be a little claustrophobic but I have gotten better over the years for example I can ride in an elevator but not with too many people. But it is packed at ComicCon and I had to run out the door to get cold fresh air.

I still even have anxiety in day to day life. Even with my blog I wonder if people do not like it. That makes me anxious. Did I do a fair review? Sure I did. But there is nagging anxiety almost daily about something.

I just wanted to share this with you I will not get into a lot of details but I just hope that I helped somebody. If you have any questions for me please write me at Chocolatemint515@aol.com and write "Anxiety" in the subject line. I would be happy to tell you about me and what has worked and what has not worked.

I think I am going to pick up Mr. Stossel's book also.